the FAT word

Having reached the point, where I can no longer look at myself in the mirror, live with the unavoidable taunts of my ex husband and some other homophobic individuals, I have reached the conclusion, that the only way forward is weight loss.

Apart from weight loss, I also have a goal to improve my health. At 43, I am an uncontrolled epileptic, asthmatic, arthritic and grossly overweight. I also have an under active thyroid, which doesn't help the problem either.

I have battled weight issues for over ten years and also through three of my pregnancies.

I enjoy healthy food. I have no problem with eating lettuce, cucumber, most fruits (excluding strawberries to which I am fatally allergic).

Recently while away from home, I actually noticed that refined carbohydrate causes difficulty for me. When I went a few days without eating bread, pasta, cakes and pastries, my digestive system seemed to cope much better.

I still get hungry, but the deal Ive made with myself is that for six days of the week, I go to the gym for a 45 minute workout and then a swim. During the week I'll follow a healthy diet that excludes as much fat as possible, and as many refined carbohydrates as possible.

The exception to this will be that on a Sunday, I will allow myself a bar of chocolate and a packet of crisps.

All fizzy drinks will now be 0-4 cals per glass and I allow myself one latte per day as my daily indulgence.

Water, water and more water.

Every day, I'll be posting my food journal and once a week journal my weight and measurements.

I am also going to log measurements such as changes in seizures, asthma (respiratory issues), pain (arthritic) and general body functions such as sleep.